Going back to go forward

I used to blog all the time – it was a way I felt connected to the world when I was so very ill, and so very isolated. My old blog has long since been private, as things got darker, and what I needed to write became more and more personal.

The darkness of then is now gone. But before I can move forward I thought it was an important step to look back at what I was writing then, so it can be very clear how far I have come on my own migraine journey.

So the there’s about 15 posts will be from way back when. I’ve prefaces them with ‘Flashback:’ so you know they’re the ones from my old blog. There are some dark moments, some epic battles with faith and family, and mostly a very real recording of coming to terms with the migraine beast.

My brain is still broken. But I have a much better handle on it now. I understand it much more. And you’ll have to forgive the older posts using terminology that is longer appropriate. I understand now that I live with migraine, and get migraine attacks, and there is no such thing as ‘migraines’. I didn’t then.

I also was much angrier then. Angry at my body, angry at God, angry at the world. I still have times when I get angry or sad, but that’s ok… it doesn’t consume every day like it used to.

Tomorrow: we go forward.